I dont know

Really dont know what I am doing at this point in time...sleep, chores and work is my daily life now so yeah. The only time when I really get upset is when my mom wants me to do something when I finally set some food down for me to eat and then bam something to do. Ya might think that sure eat first and then do it or do it then eat...the thing is that I can't due to I have to leave to go to work. I like to micro manage my time so much that I have everything set before I leave to work so either do or eat... so lets just say most of the time I eat at work and spending my money away since I just dont eat when I am at home. I know I can store food to bring to work but when do I have time to cook for my self when I wake up to do my chores and when I come home at night its like midnight to 2 am...not ideal time to make food..

Example: (with rough estimate of time)
1pm wake up (I sleep at 5am)
Water plants for about 40-45 mins
1:45pm
*sets down a bowl of rice that was out of the microwave*
Mom: Hey can you go a little early to pick up paperwork for preschool applications before you go pick up kid?
*eyes clock and looks at food and frowns*
Under normal timing I use this time to eat and prepare to pick up kid and then go to work which is roughly 25mins since it takes me 5-15mins to eat hot food and then go change and look presentable...
This is what my mind thinks:
Now if I were to go to said place to pick up preschool apps then I would. have to get dress now and prepare for work...run to the place which probably take 15mins cause of parking and looking for what I need then pick up kid to go to work...take that 15mins into consideration and thats basically my eat time

Thank goodness my mom been pestering my about the same thing over and over again that I  know that my sister already has paperwork so I just went about my usual and eat my darn bowl of rice =_= and even if I say it my mom doesn't believe me that sis gots everything taken care of. She has a phone why cant she just call my sis and leave a message or something like she does on my phone. ugh whatevers...

yeah for editing multiple backgrounds x_x i dont do backgrounds so i will tack some and butch images together

Cycle begins again

Sunday being the new week means I have to do everything again in this circle of life x_x woot woot

Anyways work was work and was fun running around the place to do my job

Went to drop off a gift to a friend and then headed over to another and had a mini celebration of brothers birth at Bucas and chilled watching Once Upon a Time. That and play with her dog too hehe

Fun yet tiring day...its like almost 2 am and I am really sleepy...which granted most of the time I feel this way is if i'm super tired and likely pass out even with the computer on on my desk and I am mid typing...ugh I hate this feeling

So decided to draw of course even when I am this freaking tired and went easy route so i can go pass out or something

Busy bee

Yep I am one busy person when it comes to being a workaholic! I came home from work last night at 2:30am to fall asleep at 5am to get a call at 9am (two hours before I was suppose to wake up) to be called in to work cause they needed a trainer...I was like really...but if they are willing to pay me more then so be it...Hauled my butt up out of bed and ready to go in 5mins. One thing good about me is A. I live near work. B. I am low maintenance so I don't have that makeup put neat hair syndrome factor, thus I made it to work with like 10 mins to spare to wolf down a sandwich and drink a chai tea late yum.

Wigging my way through work since I only had about 4 hours of sleep and finally out which at home it be more work with chores! Did my chores but the only thing that really kinda piss me off was someone left a snapple bottle out front and completely shatter it...and there be glass fragments EVERYWHERE to the point some glass fragments became grounded to dust... so I be squating like the little asian lady I am and sweep it up with little broom and dustpan cause I dont want anyone to step on it and getting every bit I could....that and there where two large piles of poop that someone didn't clean up after their dog and it was still wet and fresh them bastards. Also I really think someone pee in one of em bushes cause it stinks in that one spot...but it was better then people peeing in the laundry room trashcan...uber piss when that happens

People....I hate people =_=

So I finally relax and ate some nice rice with chicken and pass out in my chair while I was drawing...woke up to continue drawing again (I know some might call me crazy but its what I do...I wanted to finish the drawing and just kinda pass out during the process...blame the food)

So finally finish with this panel....background be my bane

Chore madness

So yeah either before I go to work or after I work I do my chores and then able to do stuff i'd like to such as eat and shower. Not on a healthy way but things are getting done...I really need to buy myself a hydration pack and just have that with me cause of the unamount of water I actually drink

=_= I really do not want to do anything but chill...not ever draw or game but just to pass out...just knowing when I wake up I work again...I dont want to sleep and want to do something to have a little "me" time...but seems like there be no "me" time anymore but at last that is life

I know some peeps out there gots it worse out there...doesnt mean i'd stop b'tching about it more or less makes me feel little better and just mosey along the daily life

x_x ugh I can do it...just dont know if my body can last function the way it does but we will see yeah?

hmmmm

Today was quite a normal day

Chores and what not

Got lost on the freeway but thank goodness I got GPS on my phone now...

Almost got smack by a car *count my blessings* in LA cause I am not use to them oneway streets

Got to be interviewed with couple of 501st peeps about the up coming May 4th woot woot

Yep...quite normal

I kinda want to try these at disneyland new fantasy fair

run around

Today was the day to just do stuff...lots of stuff

Carted around my mom to insurance and did her laundry as well as went to homedepot

I really hate laundry matts...

Then went to go eat at a buffet cause it was the grand opening and I wanted to try it out... and it was mediocre in taste but granted better then your usual chinese type buffet. The major win of that place so far was the crawfish with the simple peppered up taste and its quite better then those I've tasted

After went to target to buy my friend birthday/wedding gift x-x hope she likes it *works on it now*

i hate backgrounds

Having fun

So yea today was a day I went out to have fun...yes fun. Not caring about the ever so many projects and stuff like that...I was just there to chill with some friends. x_x Tired as it may be but fun non the less.

Day started with chores...that will never change. Then off to Disneyland zone of fun! Met up with my friends there and hanged out and ride a couple of rides... Hop into fantasy fair where they did a good job cramming in space of where to have Disney Princess to hang out and better for em kids to find them.

We also went to Disney California Adventure and ate at Charty Circle which was pretty much on the level of Blue Bayou in price but I sure like their menu a heck of a lot better. After some more rides we went to see world of color...and if I had known I would have brought my hat...

Anyways...I decided to suck it up and work on the last bit of my page 000 on comic x_x its gonna be one hell of a long project and my sleep time...

lazy bum

Yep I am one lazy bum at the moment and I dont feel like drawing

Woke up...chores...work...and back...really dont want to do anything...well maybe eat

I think gaming be something I will do tonight...bit of wow and now never ending games on the tablet

x_x still sore...i havent exercise for so long

who says troopers cant force push and wield lightsabers

Not as tired tired

Got my sleep today but then I got woken up by my sis that apparently came over to visit with the kids of course.

We had a little minor hang out day and went to the ever so hated costco...its not costco that I hate but the so much traffic of people that is in costco I hate. So to celebrate our day and surviving that mess of costco we got some boba...and after some $$ later we went home and I off to work

Train some more and since I had time I went and drew some stuff...so taking a minor break from comic to make:

of course I took it home and slap some color on to it

Its for my friend that needs some cheering up so I hope this helps in her lifes quest

x_x Arms are still sore

Tiredness

No drawing today...i'm just flat out tired...seriously tired...

Got only 4 hours of sleep

Worked for 8 hours

Jog with/ dragged by friends dog

Went around the apartments and pick up trash

Dishes ( ya think it aint nothing but literally have two sink full of dishes and sides with pots and pans everyday ya would think they be serving a restaurant)

and freaking scared of my room due to a crane fly....

I know crane fly dont bite but its just HUGE...and their legs freak me out and I dont want it to land on me....

So due to crane fly in room as well as the literalness of being absolutely tired no drawing today

bah I spend too much on food...enough said I am over with my $$ count

*grumbles* its already 4 am and my arms are sore from holding back a dog that cant get the concept of walking with you rather then being a mush dog

I should sleep

ugh I hate fridays

Thank goodness its friday my butt....the fact that I should be sleeping after I come home from work doesn't mean I will get any sleep! So I sit here waiting for my body to want sleep =_=

Gotta work then chores then sleep and at least sunday I will actually have a night shift then the usual mornings. For today though I will just be zombified morning person.

At the moment I really dont want to do anything so it suffers on the whole drawing a panel but I rough sketch and probably put this as the title page ish type thing...whatevers

Whatevers

Yep I am in the whatever mode...finish the whole grieving part yesterday so life goes on ya know. There was even a shrink at work to see if we needed em consoling and stuff which I get and great for people to use em but still work aint be the place to break down for sure and if people dont talk about it I'd be all good and again life goes on.

Nothing really major unless you count the world news on em boston and texas fill. Sad that it maybe and the ever so questionable reason of why? As much as we would love to understand the human brain...we only know probably a fraction on what it can hold and understand stuff like reason and logic. The guys that had done all this must have a reason...and there must be some twisted logic attach to it...

*sighs* Prayers for everyone out there, for the families that lost someone and those that are under recovery from this tragic mess

maybe done with the first page?

Things sometimes just happen

As much as I stress living my days out...I'm happy to be alive knowing the people around me and even when one is gone a piece of them will remain. Even if the person is an asshat they serve as a reminder of how you should not be to others a piece will always remain. When the time the brain simply doesn't function as it use to but that one chick or dude that imprint in your brain that they did something for you will still remain in feeling and some form of memory.

Today I lost not really a close friend but a friend none the less. She was a coworker and as my memory serves I have never really seen her without a smile on her face. I am not quite sure how it happened but I saw her a couple of days ago and she looked quite fine. Its going to be sad going to work...and if someone tears up or even mentions about it...I will try to have a strong face but feeling all that emotion around I would probably tear up myself.

RIP Alma know ya be in my memories

 One thing about growing up is to feel ones mortality...as time fly by more people ya will lose...tis be the cycle of life... I know and life goes on

All those "what ifs" starts to play...and I try not to think about it because its quite stressful and I rather live here and now to appreciated what I have before it all goes away

.....

Enough of the gloom and doom I've been having all day I have a life to live as well. Been working vigorously on them chorus again. First part of the day did laundry and water em plants as usual. Did em dishes twice. Pick up trash at night. Mom asked me if I wanted to take up the job as a manager and I said no because she thinks she cant do this when she hasnt even recovered yet. I will help her doesnt mean I would like the job for the sake of doing it. Not like a manager to water the bazillion of plants thats basically her own garden she keeps in pots out all over the front railway. I dont want to manage whiny tenants and deal with their ever so slight problems they can come up with. If it comes to the point that my mom wants to retire then thats fine I will just end up moving somewhere. Where I dont know but I am sure to manage...hell if I need to tough it out in a car and send all my stuff in storage I would....

Stress be my bane 

I should go to sleep =_=

yes even in my stress filled day I manage to draw too

Energy

So like woke up at 2pm yep thats right totally slept the morning away...cause you know what...I CAN...after a week of worry and stress today was my day to simply recharge.

Of course meaning of recharge is only in terms of sleep...other wise my day was just a fun filled day of chores.

First I picked up my nephew to bring him home which I ended up with my sisters old samsung phone which she says she doesnt like due to internet issues with it. Since I have the tablet I have no issues so UPGRADE yeah! So far its working out great...slowly figuring it out which my new ring tone is Chocobo theme with texting of KWEE! sound that they make. My friend help me a lot to set things up like an awesome lightning background =3 I ish happy with new upgrade.

Second I went off and bought my mom some water and then went off to make deposits of money then bought me a nice wet jet so I can clean the floors cause I hate mopping with bucket...the bucket factor kills me... so wasted a nice 30$ there. Some one stole our trash picker so I need to get a new one...I mean really people if you want to steal the thing that I pick up poop and trash with thats totally fine with me.

Third all them chores. I washed the dishes twice today and out of all that only two bowls of it exist form me eating in them...I sometimes now wonder how can people eat that much in a day...since well apparently I dont eat as much anymore. I watered the plants as usual since my mom likes to water them...EVERYDAY -_- and for one I dont have a green thumb but I feel like your not suppose to but then again my mom likes em nice flowers that probably are picky and requires upkeep....

Finally my friend was nice enough to bring me out and have some boba while we chill at her house and watch some good ole classic Ranma 1/2

x_x sometimes I wonder how much energy I consume and how I just keep running till I pass out...hopefully my body dont yell at me tomorrow

Food: 783$
Stuff: 615$
Gas: 330$
Bills:2220$

somethings dont transfer too well from writing to artwork...I just hope I can pull it off 

projects projects projects

One thing in my life that is constant is my brain on over time. It likes to think of things and wish it to be done but frankly lots of time and money invested and only a handful of things actually gets produced. At this point in time with taking care of my mom's work, work work, and my hobbies well lets just say I'm slowly going to go crazy...but eh that's life yeah?

Projects I am trying to work on (and maybe never finish depending):
Sargent Calhoun
Shadow scout back to Biker scout
Elite Nova Trooper
Upgrade Ping(Mulan in armor)
Food charm earrings
AMV animation
and now adding Making a Comic

>.> so I like this fanfic called Final Fantasy After XIII by omgwtfdondake and sequal is Alter basically events that happen after FFXIII universe but mixing a bit of FFXIII-2 for Alter. I think it would be a great project to try and make it into a comic...lol it would be a great test and I guess I will have to just learn on the way...I need to make a cover photo but I will get to it sooner or later...going to be slow and tedious and I am going to half arse them backgrounds and most likely take em from internet and edit the life out of it. Since I dont got a whole lot of time in my day to draw well panel by panel will have ta do then I will stick in DA a page at a time o.o

Its harder then it looks x_x

8$ on food today

Food: 783$
Stuff: 585$
Gas: 330$
Bills:2220$

Back to the usual

So yeah totally woke up after a three hour nap sleep to go to work and around noon someone caught me wigging out a bit cause I was struggling to keep my eyes open...fun...

Went off to do stuff for my mom. Seems like my prediction is true...once my mom comes home there be tons of food that she cant really eat due to people in the apartments giving her gifts of get well soon stuff...so I wont be starving for a while... least that or cereal...I just notice I do consume quite a lot of that

Also bought some stuff for my fans which was convientent that my mom wanted stuff at Home depot so I can grab things i need there like electrical tape etc etc

so spent 5$ on food and 30$ on stuff

Food: 775$
Stuff: 585$
Gas: 330$
Bills:2220$

Figure even with my nap/pass out sections I squished in time to draw n stuff ...this be a true quick sketch lol...i need to practice more

no longer really a sketch a day since i skip a few but I will try to continue

I should be sleeping

Well I told myself that I would go to sleep for work tomorrow morning but looks like I got caught up on working on my soldering skills and working on my fans =D after a little 101 on how to wire my wires lol i now have fans!

Not the best setup for the fact that I didnt foresee somethings so its best something i learn now ...and probably will electric tape the rest...but so long it works it works!....it would greatly help me when I need to rig the darn leds...slowly but surely gonna work on that costume

spent 5$ on food at work and 39$ in gas
Food: 770$
Stuff: 555$
Gas: 330$
Bills:2220$

now I gotta wake up in about 7 hours for work...so I dont think sleep is all that much there

On a good note however my mom is now back home! She be still recovering but least she is home and the chaos will dampen and just glad she be alright

That's my life

Well been running around today...watering my mom's plants, picking up trash and what nots. Visited my mom at the hospital and she looks weak but getting better...though looks like another surgery will be again in the near future but she may be home by sunday

It will be a good thing cause we need someone to calm the chaos known as my moms work.

Apparently need to give a guy his deposit back but I never seen him come...just call so I figure he probably does the day time work and when he comes I am already gone to work...

Also the mailbox needs to be fixing which I need to have people to take their mail out in order to fix it but also I need to have the person fix it scheduled in too which frankly I have no idea who it is so I am going to have to leave that to mom to organize cause being the one playing telephone I know something will not get translated

All I am good for is keeping the apt clean...

Anyways I had time to spare after my moms visit so I went to frys to get some electric components for wiring up stuff for like my fans and lights and finally got myself some rechargable 9volt batteries spent 80$ there and 5$ on food yeah...200$ on bills

Food: 765$
Stuff: 555$
Gas: 291$
Bills:2220$

Plan the planning

My mom sounded much better today when she called me to "clean the kitchen" even if she is away she sound like she is at home =) which I guess is a good thing in my book.

Doc says if things are looking the way they are mom might be back by monday. Of course it begins the worry in the rest and recovery phase cause well a healing from the sternum there would probably take about a month or two. At this point in time all i know is that she cant lift anything more then 5lb and going to be a low to no sodium diet. It was a good thing I was never a picky eater but I just gotta watch out what she eats and frankly I know I wont be able to watch her all day due to my hectic work scheduled.

Planning to visit in the morning so gotta wake up and probably pick up trash, water the plants, shower, visit mom. then whatever time left I have before work at 6pm which I get ready about 4pm....if I wake up at 9am I would hopefully be done with the trash pickings to the shower aiming for 10am-10:30am. Travel time to hospital and wait time to see mom shooting for 11am-12pm cause I frankly dont know how hospitals work from there to 3:30pm is what I have depending on the visit and how long the visit will be...if I ended up early cause frankly I don't talk much and I dont like to strike much conversation cause my mom knows I am like that...I probably will hit up frys and check out stuff i need for my costume

10$ on stuff 10$ on food
Food: 760$
Stuff: 475$
Gas: 291$
Bills:2020$

I think the angel sketch of lightning is gonna be on hold or never finished lol got a few other ideas on my head but will have to wait on it till i have this thing called time or more mental power of not passing out while I draw in the ever so lack of time I have in the day

The wait continues

So today was my day off and well did what I said before....did the laundry, feed moms plants, make bunchys of phone calls, and took care of nephew.

Very unproductive day that this day was

My mom called from the hospital I was like "how ya doing mom" and she very nicely put "Did you know they are cutting my ribcage open? Oh and please put the pineapples in the fridge" I think she was full of drugs on that phone call but that didnt make me less nervous on what the heck is going on. I'm just getting bits and pieces and as much as I would love to visit my mom =( work to be done at home is needed cause I know my mom loves her job and wants me to man the fort while she is gone. As stubborn as she is (which is where I got it from) I wouldnt want people visiting me at the hospital and rather have em get things done then the looks of pity and awkward silences . Least that is my mentality on the subject

Her boss called me today and he tried ta send flowers n stuff but since my mom is like in surgery mode/recovery no visitors (but family) or flowers allowed atm so we all gots to wait. Apparently she had bypass surgery which was a lot more then said blood clot. That little run on the treadmill physical open up to the potential heart attack that sent her on her way to hospital. So one simple check up became a full on thing...but I am kinda glad it happen while she was already in a medical facility and not some random place or worse home alone.

I do thank my many friends for support. As much as I do hate being the only body in this house at the moment...it gives me a freedom of thought to not think about the current situation and let me sulk and stress in my own way...maybe not healthy but least I dont stress as much as I should.

Going to be working all week long for the next 5 days =( T.O.M. is a constant pain. I know my mom will be kept at the docs for couple more days so until then I will try to zen out as much as possible and not bring home matters to work

Stress yet not stressing

I don't like to stress but I think I am stressing...its stressful thinking that I am stressing in my non stressful state because I havent had this much stress for so long, I forgot how it feels like to stress an awful lot!

My mom apparently is staying a lot longer in the hospital probably due to the surgery so I'm like stuck at home. I wish to be supportive and visit but she wants me to run the house. Basically she is a manager of apartments and so I have to somewhat manage it with the lack of knowledge to manage it (paperwork aspect)...All I know to do is clean up the apartments(from the many litterers and smoker buds), take messages, and water her millions of plants she has out front. So tomorrow I at least plan to do my laundry, make a whole bunch of phone calls, clean up apts, water plants, and have a friend visit and hopefully keep my sanity

Back in college my mom went on vacation for a month to Vietnam and left the house to me. I did somewhat ok managing the place (with the help of her planning a few things) but I prefer not to do it again unless I was properly trained even then I DONT want to be a manager of apartments due to the fact of all em COMPLAINERS of every little thing. I get if you have plumbing issues or kitchen issues...but if you dont know how to put in a new light bulb or put in a new battery for the gate opener...seriously you got issues. Also I live in the rental office....doesn't mean we are a 24 hour service. I bet if someones house was on fire they probably call here first then 911....

Thats just not my kind of stress

Out of all of that the one thing I hate the most...is the quiet in the house. Being so use to living with someone and have to hear some kind of noise in the other room. An empty house is an empty house...I would adjust to it but it's quite lonely =(

7$ on stuff 7$ on food
Food: 750$
Stuff: 465$
Gas: 291$
Bills:2020$

Muse is stressing atm so no drawing tonight either...that and freaking found the flea biting the heck out of me so yeah jumbo of Feels today

Just one of those days

Well today was kinda on the fast pace. Seems like my mom was subjected to a physical (mind you she doesnt work out) to find out she be having a blood clot somewhere and ended up at the hospital ER...what a way to start off the day.

Of course my mom leaves me obscured messages to not really tell me whats wrong and had to find out via my sister.

Top it off I skip work so I can take care of the nephew which was a good call since I didnt even know my mom went to the hospital and going to be there all night!

I just hope she be ok afterwards

Dont feel like drawing tonight ..too stressed to do so

In the mean time look at this awesome tshirt my sis gave me

Sea World Adventure

Day was awesomely filled with my friends which brought me to Sea World. I never been least the last time I was told I was still in my mom womb so I don't count that.......

First was the trip which in the morning I usually pass out in the car...No matter the journey car rides, freeways (mostly) and me = sleep....-_-;; ya think even with me driving on the freeways in the morning especially ..sometimes i find myself inching closer to the side bounderies....count my blessings I havent been in an accident when I loose conscience on the road for how ever long I do (knock on wood)

Anyways there are times I am not really paying attention to anything around me and my friends seems to slip not once but twice of where I was going. Lol yeah my hearing is shot if I dont focus

Alright when we reach there I guess our first ride was a water ride...then we went all over checking out animals...then went on the only other interesting ride and then watch more animals =D i know i suck at summery but will make it up with all em pictures!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Ok now i ish tired to draw and slight headache so I will go and like pass out or something

Thanks my awesome friends for an awesome day