Stress yet not stressing

I don't like to stress but I think I am stressing...its stressful thinking that I am stressing in my non stressful state because I havent had this much stress for so long, I forgot how it feels like to stress an awful lot!

My mom apparently is staying a lot longer in the hospital probably due to the surgery so I'm like stuck at home. I wish to be supportive and visit but she wants me to run the house. Basically she is a manager of apartments and so I have to somewhat manage it with the lack of knowledge to manage it (paperwork aspect)...All I know to do is clean up the apartments(from the many litterers and smoker buds), take messages, and water her millions of plants she has out front. So tomorrow I at least plan to do my laundry, make a whole bunch of phone calls, clean up apts, water plants, and have a friend visit and hopefully keep my sanity

Back in college my mom went on vacation for a month to Vietnam and left the house to me. I did somewhat ok managing the place (with the help of her planning a few things) but I prefer not to do it again unless I was properly trained even then I DONT want to be a manager of apartments due to the fact of all em COMPLAINERS of every little thing. I get if you have plumbing issues or kitchen issues...but if you dont know how to put in a new light bulb or put in a new battery for the gate opener...seriously you got issues. Also I live in the rental office....doesn't mean we are a 24 hour service. I bet if someones house was on fire they probably call here first then 911....

Thats just not my kind of stress

Out of all of that the one thing I hate the most...is the quiet in the house. Being so use to living with someone and have to hear some kind of noise in the other room. An empty house is an empty house...I would adjust to it but it's quite lonely =(

7$ on stuff 7$ on food
Food: 750$
Stuff: 465$
Gas: 291$
Bills:2020$

Muse is stressing atm so no drawing tonight either...that and freaking found the flea biting the heck out of me so yeah jumbo of Feels today