Things sometimes just happen

As much as I stress living my days out...I'm happy to be alive knowing the people around me and even when one is gone a piece of them will remain. Even if the person is an asshat they serve as a reminder of how you should not be to others a piece will always remain. When the time the brain simply doesn't function as it use to but that one chick or dude that imprint in your brain that they did something for you will still remain in feeling and some form of memory.

Today I lost not really a close friend but a friend none the less. She was a coworker and as my memory serves I have never really seen her without a smile on her face. I am not quite sure how it happened but I saw her a couple of days ago and she looked quite fine. Its going to be sad going to work...and if someone tears up or even mentions about it...I will try to have a strong face but feeling all that emotion around I would probably tear up myself.

RIP Alma know ya be in my memories

 One thing about growing up is to feel ones mortality...as time fly by more people ya will lose...tis be the cycle of life... I know and life goes on

All those "what ifs" starts to play...and I try not to think about it because its quite stressful and I rather live here and now to appreciated what I have before it all goes away

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Enough of the gloom and doom I've been having all day I have a life to live as well. Been working vigorously on them chorus again. First part of the day did laundry and water em plants as usual. Did em dishes twice. Pick up trash at night. Mom asked me if I wanted to take up the job as a manager and I said no because she thinks she cant do this when she hasnt even recovered yet. I will help her doesnt mean I would like the job for the sake of doing it. Not like a manager to water the bazillion of plants thats basically her own garden she keeps in pots out all over the front railway. I dont want to manage whiny tenants and deal with their ever so slight problems they can come up with. If it comes to the point that my mom wants to retire then thats fine I will just end up moving somewhere. Where I dont know but I am sure to manage...hell if I need to tough it out in a car and send all my stuff in storage I would....

Stress be my bane 

I should go to sleep =_=

yes even in my stress filled day I manage to draw too